Making My Way Back to Peace of Mind

“I am a huge believer in giving back and helping out in the community and the world. Think globally, act locally I suppose. I believe that the measure of a person’s life is the effect they have on others.” ~Steve Nash

 

It is my belief that when I am in a moment of lack that I should give encouragement to those who I think may benefit from what I do have an abundance of at that time. That lack for me at this time is patience. The people I surround myself with in life have on many occasions said that one of my greatest strengths is patience. I can take a lot and keep calm. So much so, that I can recall the last time I blew up in public, which was in the summer of 2015 at the movies. I calmly waited until after NWA went off, I sat there in the theater with this women outright disrespect playing on repeat in my head, as I inserted different scenes that mimicked NWA’s hardcore antics. Needless to say after the movie went off, I waited outside the theater for her to come out and I approached her. I let her have it short of putting my hands around her neck. It felt unreal to be in that space of giving control over to the situation. I had movie length time to stop myself, but damn – it felt rewarding (sorry) but it also felt like I loss control, which is a space that I dislike being in.

In my lack of patience at this time, I have an abundance of encouragement. I always say that when we speak to other people positive or negative, you speak those same words into our own life. We are closer to our own audio, right. In an attempt to turn my lack of patience into a moment of clarity, I want to give encouragement.

“You may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you can know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it. ~Maya Angelou

 

I received a call at work weeks ago from my mother’s job. The lady on the phone, a person I am familiar with told me that my mother was there beside her but she needed to talk to me because she was upset. When my mother got on the phone she was crying uncontrollably. Her sobs made me afraid for fear of what may have happened. After asking her several times to calm down and to tell me what was going on, she said in between sobs that she had received a call from a child who she believed was her granddaughter, my niece that she was blindfolded and unaware of where she was.

My heart and mind jumped into action…

Did I miss something today?

Were there signs that I missed from the universe

Did I speak to someone who could have given a clue

Had I read or heard somewhere anywhere of this occurring, on the news, in the Washington Post – on tv – picked up on conversations that this was a trend? 

Did the dream I had not long ago about a kidnapping have any basis?

When the mental hunt was over, I told her to try to calm down and that I would call her. I made a series of phone calls starting with my niece and then every female child in the family. For every confirming voices that said, I’m safe, I cancelled the threat.

“I’m safe.” – Did I miss something today?

“I’m safe.” – Were there signs that I missed from the universe?

“I’m safe.” – Did I speak to someone who could have given a clue?

“I’m safe.” – Had I read or heard somewhere anywhere of this occurring, on the news, in the Washington Post – on tv – picked up on conversations that this was a trend?

“I’m safe.” – Did the dream I had not long ago about a kidnapping have any basis?

 

Such is true in moments of lack, no matter what it is we must pause and confirm for ourselves by saying, “I’m safe.” If we allow our body to take care of us, which it will – we will come to the cancellation process quicker.

I breathed a sigh of relief and called my mother back. I confirmed that not only was her grandchild safe, but every child in the family was safe. I removed the lie by giving truth to what was and gave her room to breathe herself way back peace.

This is the process –strip away the lies and find our way back as soon as possible to the truth in every situation.

With as much love and light that I can afford to give at this time, I hope you find you way back. -W38

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